Feng Shui

Spirituality and Meaning Making

Sometimes I think: I don’t understand how a person who believes in God can simultaneously have a chronic mental illness, or stay embittered in past hurts. But I realise that just as being in therapy couldn’t be a quick fix, going to church will never satisfactorily answer all my big questions either.


 

 

 

Secret Place: Explorative art piece on spirituality and meaning making [mixed media]

Sometimes I think therapy space is like church.

Both places are the only domains in my life where I experience comfort and safety.

To have someone listen to your deepest hurts heals as much as God’s presence does for me.

Most times the former is way more tangible. But other times I know only God wouldn’t ever let me go.

Both matter enough to me to leave me vulnerable to harsh disappointment, hurt, and betrayal.

Yet both are equally accepting of my real emotions. Neither requires me to keep up the facade.

Sometimes I think: I don’t understand how a person who believes in God can simultaneously have a chronic mental illness, or stay embittered in past hurts.

But I realise that just as being in therapy couldn’t be a quick fix, going to church will never satisfactorily answer all my big questions either.

Unless I accept that the presence of someone who loves me unconditionally is going to be enough. To keep me going one more hour, day, night, week, relapse, birthday. Maybe it is.

I don’t really dare to think of my future. But hope is hope and I want to accept it anyway it comes.


[To learn more about spirituality and emotional health, visit https://www.takingcharge.csh.umn.edu/what-spirituality]



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