Self-care is important. You have to take care of yourself. Your doctor and therapist can only do so much to help you. You have to take little steps to work towards recovery, and help yourself by avoiding your triggers. It is really not easy. Sometimes you may lapse into the whirlpool of negativity or you might still hallucinate.
Sometimes, you never know how deep the hole can go. I never knew it either, but apparently, when you think you are really depressed and you can’t go any lower, life says: “you know what? Let’s go 3 floors lower.” What I would love to do, is to escape the recesses of my own mind. The birthplace and labyrinth of new ideas and new creations, but also my worst enemy as well. Introversion is a personality trait for some people, and they like it this way, but I think introversion has turned itself against me.