I had become a monster, and I pushed everyone away, whether friends or foes. I felt quite ashamed that I had a misunderstanding with a friend, and as a result, I actually left a meetup much earlier than expected without saying a word, because said friend was there.
As someone who goes through periods and waves of depression, self-care can get terribly difficult for me. Brushing my teeth, taking showers or washing my face becomes something I do every few days. Recently, I found one way to make myself take showers. Still working on other self-care methods, but I think taking a shower can be one of the things that make a person feel more refreshed. A slightly cool shower running down the face and body can be very effective in upping one’s mood slightly, being clean and all.
Thinspo, or thin-inspiration, is more rampant than ever today – it is every Internet user’s responsibility to work against its rise, and the leaders Ana and Mia.
My anxiety has been quite bad recently, I had to take a valium pill for these past two days. I keep having the 21st birthday dream, where I tried to organise a 21st birthday party, but somehow, something would crop out and nothing would work out. I wished my own birthday was more grand, posher and more lavish but now it’s too late. I am not 21 anymore.
Please let me out of this dark, scary place, i’m being torn apart at the seams, i am being shackled by your chains. My inner demons are tormenting me, it’s eating me from inside out, i want the good ol’ days back. I just want to get through the day, the lights are flickering more, the walls are closing up even further, i can’t breathe, i’m going to hyperventilate.
I receive treatment at IMH and have attended a myriad of support groups both over the course of my stay in the ward and since then, across various outpatient settings. Recently, my therapist suggested I attend her Psychotherapy Process Group. The objective of which would be to actively work through sticky interpersonal issues that surfaced during group interactions. I struggle with BPD traits and since they tend to manifest themselves as trust and boundary issues in many of my intimate relationships, I decided to give it a go.
Excoriation disorder is a disorder whereby the sufferer feels the compulsive urge to pick at his or her own skin. Common places for skin picking include the scalp, shoulders, hands etc.
So for the love of God, Buddha, Mohammed, or whatever god you believe in, if someone in your life suffers from mental illness, please visit them. Please care for them and extend a helping hand. Sinead, like myself, are fortunate enough to be seeking constant treatment and are able to share our experiences and opinions on what we go through. But there is a significant group of people who cannot.
Some people may find it very difficult to talk about their feelings for a number of different reasons. These includes not being able to find the right words to describe what they are feeling, or feeling embarrassed and ashamed to open up about something so personal to a therapist who may seem like a stranger. These reasons are all understandable. After all, emotions are very complex and an intimate part of one self. Yet, these former emotions are often the ones that need the most attention, release and analyzing. Doing so will greatly aid the process of healing.
I have never fessed up and actually recognised where my thoughts go sometimes. But the fact that I cannot care for myself, the fact that I cannot remember when was the last time I was happy and the fact that I do not see myself as a living being in the coming years scare me. It should scare others around me more than it does, and that is why I fight stigma.
Thus, I think I may appear high functioning, or I seem like I am doing okay when I am actually not. In reality, I feel that I am quite low functioning. I have huge employment and education gaps. That’s why I am writing this. I feel that I am lagging behind my peers, and I feel that I may not be able to find suitable employment in the future, so I don’t feel like I stand to lose by writing this.
Watching the girls’ routine during the Games, their reactions upon winning, and then this reflective piece describing the entire process, this somehow felt reminiscent of therapy to me. The metaphors and allusions and perfect descriptions of drowning are something I can relate easily too, even though I’m by no means a synchronised swimmer.
Being an optimist myself, I have always chosen to focus on the bright side of things, on the things that I could change and improve. Thus, I would like to share some ideas on how to focus on the good side of things and drive out those negative thoughts through three simple steps!
Basically, inside my mind. Being someone with anxiety disorder makes it hard for others to understand what really goes on in my mind because everyone has anxiety, but some have anxiety disorder. I found this list a long way back and had it saved as a note in my phone, waiting for someone that I got close enough to share with. Disappointingly, I couldn’t find anyone to share this with, so here it is. I did not write this, but I did find it humorous and maybe you can help someone in need.
There are many misconceptions about psychosis, which is – by definition: a severe mental disorder in which thought and emotions are so impaired that contact is lost with external reality – used as a noun, so “they were suffering from a psychosis”. We want to dispel some myths about psychosis – and maybe stir the sitting pot that is conversation.
Being diagnosed with a mental illness can be a life-changing event that is frightening, and it has the potential to make you feel alone. It can be helpful to talk about your diagnosis with people that you trust and care about, but it might be a topic that is very difficult to for one to approach. There are many areas to ponder about and here are some that you need to think properly about before talking to someone about your mental health diagnosis.
Nobody wants to be sick. Nobody wants illnesses placed upon them. I recently got warded for being suicidal and my only night there was unpleasant – with the lack of electronics – it made my self-therapy difficult. I had to keep myself busy and there were no opportunities for me to do so.
Us versus them – that’s the short answer. Stigma only exists because we want to be on the side of the majority, the side of what is “right” – or what we perceive as right anyway – the side which is accepted by the same majority they want to be part of.
The wide range of inputs that contribute to mental health can lead one to guess that it is definitely not easy to achieve a good state of mental health. As such, here are 4 ways that can help you to improve your mental wellness on a daily basis.
He mentioned that he felt that things were too heavy for him, and there was a lot of emotional baggage in his mind, and he needed to release it. He stood in solidarity with his fans, showing that he has been dealing with a lot of issues.
Educating society on mental health and trying to eradicate the stigma of mental illness is a battle hard fought, but one that is absolutely needed. One of the best ways to gain an insight into the mind and daily struggles of what someone with mental health illnesses goes through is no doubt through books.
According to the World Health Organization, mental health is defined as “a state of wellbeing in which every individual realizes his or her own potential, can cope with the normal stresses of life, can work productively and fruitfully, and is able to make a contribution to her or his community.
Antidepressants are used in the treatment of depressive disorders (e.g. major depressive disorder, dysthymia). They can also be used for other conditions, such as anxiety disorders.
People suffering from anxiety disorders often face more than a few minutes or hours of uncomfortable anxiety. Their anxiety goes on for longer periods of time – months on ends – and they can be so severe that they can be triggered by harmless situations, interfere with one’s social relationships, academic performance and work performance, and even result in comorbid mental health illnesses like depression. Understand what is and how we can treat anxiety.
Some see it as a sensitive topic when they want to ask about my experience with mental illness, but honestly, I like it. Apart from just offering a different perspective, sharing with them my experience and answering questions forces me to reflect on my past.
I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare. ― Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story
Remember that depression isn’t just a mental illness – It used to drive me mad that Rob wouldn’t get out of bed. It took a while to realise that he “couldn’t” rather than “wouldn’t”. I was so sure he would feel better if he came out for a walk or met his friends, but depression is a physical illness, too. As Dr Cain says: “Physically, depression impacts energy levels. People sometimes feel very tired and want to stay in bed all the time.”
I am currently wading through the thick muck and mire of recovery from childhood sexual abuse, and sometimes it gets ugly. My therapist says that I “check out” as a defense mechanism – that I numb myself by disassociating from the trauma. And I do. Because I’m terrified to feel my feelings. I’m terrified that if I really let them out, I will be crushed by them. I’m getting there, slowly, one painful step at a time. But I’m getting there.
Have you ever daydreamed? Or perhaps your mind wandered off during a conversation? You have? Congratulations, you have experienced a dissociative episode. Dissociation is common but for those with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), the experience is amplified ten-fold.
What struck me in the above extract was Mattew’s sense of powerlessness and lack of control over his relapse, recovery and treatment journey in the health and family system. We want every individual in Singapore to have a safe space to reach out and tell his/her story. To have one’s emotions and experiences held tight. We want to create a community that validates not only the joy and triumphs of life, but also the pain and secret shames embedded in your personal journeys.